Unable to focus - feeling frustrated!

Today I have not been doing what I needed to do. That makes me frustrated but somehow I can not get focused on my studies.
My next exam is tomorrow morning :S

Nothing has been happening except trying to study. So I find myself not having anything to say. :(

I'm going back to study, I have to focus, I have to learn.

So let's hope I will manage :S

- with love -

Final exams starts tomorrow......

..... and man I haven't learned as much as I wanted to.

oh man. My exam is at 09:00 tomorrow morning and I'm getting a little nervous.

but as a true student I take a crash study corse the night before and try to learn as much as I can. there is just something... I feel like I'm not memorizing the characters enough and that is bad :S
We'll see tomorrow how it goes.

14 days to Christmas. I can not believe it.

My mind is half with my exams and half with christmas and next steps after them. I have been having strange feeling in my stomach for some time now and I can not wait until Exams are finishes.

Well, I think I'm gonna hit the books again and try to write some texts with chinese characters and learn them as much as I can.
So until next time.
Zàijiàn - Good bye
-with love -

Always trying to be strong!

You don't own me
I'm not juss one of your many toys
you dont own me
dont say i cant go with other boys
bababababababaaaaa

DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO
AND DONT TELL ME WHAT TO SAY
AND WHEN I GO OUT WIHT YOU
DONT PUT ME ON DISPLAY

you dont own me
dont try to change me in any way
you dont own me
dont drag me down ,
cuz ill never stay

I dont tell you what to say
I dont tell you what to do
SO JUST LET ME BE MYSELF
thats all i ask from you

Im young
and i love to be young
Im free
and i love to free
to live my life the way i want
to say and do whatever i please
Bette Midler - You dont own me

being random!

I'm sitting here on a café, was working on AIESEC stuff and now it's time to start preparing for my exams.
I have to admit I'm getting a little nervous about them.. they are not far away anymore and I have so many things to learn more before entering the exam room :S
We'll see how it goes.

There are so many people sitting here next to me and studying, I feel that people are getting nervous but I also feel a little christmas spirit in people.
I like that very much.

I have been sitting here for 2 hours and I have to admit so far I have gotten through a lot of work but I feel it's time to move, maybe to another café or somewhere there are not so many people.
I catch myself looking at the people, enjoying the diversity in one small coffee house in Hafnarfjördur and it can be distracting when I need to be focusing.

I'm listening to a song.. Have you ever? with Brandy.
It's interesting that you can be listening to songs but the song you decide to really hear is a song that is speaking directly to you! I find it at least interesting.
Well, I'm gonna stop being random here and start moving my ass to another location.

-with love-

On the way to a decision!

I had a great weekend. Lot happend and I had a lot of time to sit and think by myself, actually 6 hours driving by myself made me do a lot of thinking.

My exams are starting, I have many things to do before christmas and I feel like time is slipping away.

I dont have a lot of things to say, I'm tired and I can not wait for another week to start.

Just wanted to share with you that I'm doing some thinking, I'm trying to figure out what the h*** I want to do for the upcoming year. It's tough though.. hehe.
So many options.

Hope you had a great weekend and are ready for a busy and fun week :)
-with love-

Questions and answers are keeping me awake!

I was just learning how to import all my postings here to my notes at Facebook - something very cool.
So then I started to write this post now.. when I started thinking..
"all the crap I have been writing here will automatically go to facebook - a place where I only posted the SMART thoughts I have. Now everything will go there"
So I'm going to give this a try..

But now it's been some times since I wrote my happy moments. I just haven't given myself the time to actually sit down and appriciate them all. Things have been busy, I'm still not doing so great and I honestly havent been thinking about my happy moments
But there have been good and great moments.

So I'm gonna take some time off sharing my happy moments, I'm still going to treasure them.
I have some other thoughts I need to work through now.
- where do I see myself next year and doing what?
- why do I easily get so f**k**g jealous when there is nothing that should make my feel this way, or is there something ?
- Am I gonna be strong enough to keep all my promises I have made to myself?

so I'm gonna keep thinking about my happy moments, as well as trying to figure out the answers to questions above.
That will be my priority now!

- with love -

Every Day is a new day! Embrace it.

Today is gonna be the day - I heard somewhere..
and that's true - today was the day :) Nothing special happened in that sense but the day was just one of a kind and I think that's what Oasis ment with the sentence.

a lot of thoughts are running through my mind, about life, love, friends and future. I keep thinking about what I want to do, how I'm going to make sure I'm working towards my goals and not living in doubt about anything.
Thoughts are running in my mind, questions like "What if"? and I look at all the things that could be happening and what I would do to react. How would I handle difficult situations? how strong am I?

As we are heading towards my favorite season - christmas - I wish for a lot of things. I wish and I hope - but I'm afraid to act on some of those wishes ( or I have been ). But now I have decided I'm not going to be afraid anymore. If the outcome will be negative at least I tried and I can move on. Then I dont have to sit around and wonder when I'm older "what if"?
I had a good day and I'm thankful for it. My highlights of the day are following:

- Meeting a friend I haven't seen for a long time. It was so nice to meet Ragna, talk about our lifes and experiences since last time and just hang out like old times. I really enjoyed all the conversations.

- Going to the movies. I haven't gone to the movies in a long time - it's a shame since I enjoy it very much. I went to see " Dan in real life" and I have to admit it's very good. I laughed, I almost cried and I had a great time.

- Taking a "time out" bath and reading my book. Just relaxing for some minutes before taking on another busy week. It was so relaxing, so peaceful and nice. It sure is a time out from everything else.

It's almost end of the month and I feel like the year is moving to fast - time goes by way to fast and I can not keep up.
I guess that's the feeling when you are enjoying the process, living life and really be everything you can be - because that's what I have been doing this year.
And I can not wait for the next one to come so that could go by even faster with everything I'm going to take on. :)

I'm trying to be open, happy and enjoy everything. This is my result so far.
What is your result?
How are you progressing towards the person/life you want to have?
Are you already there?

- with love -

having few things to share

My happy moments today are following:

- Good meeting with Local committee University of Iceland. People were excited about starting to work even if they are having exams and are busy. That keeps me motivated and eager to work more.

- sitting at a café and meeting my friend, Gunga.

- reading Chinese history and drinking caffee latte. I have to read a lot of chinese history before my exam and I am starting to like what I'm reading.


I went this morning to the doctors to get my blood examined because I have been so sick, tired and having a lot of headache these past few weeks. Something that doesn't feel good and is so unlike me :S
So let's wait until monday to hear what they will say about my blood, if it's good or bad :S

I dont have a lot of things to say, why - I can not say. But tomorrow is looking good.. the weekend is looking even better and Who knows.... I might have a lot of happy moments on monday. :)

- with love -

Rocking around and getting stronger!

I went into a book store today and I came out without buying books.
I feel it now how strong I am getting. ;)

Now I have all dressed up, put on makeup ( yeah believe it or not ), might even wear high heals :S and I'm going to celebrate with my friend, she had her birthday 2 days ago.
So, after week lying at home, having headache, dizziness and not feeling great, I'm going out and celebrate. I'm going to get my energy back.

I miss my energy and I'm glad that I am getting it back.
So now I wish you a great night, great weekend and a week full of excitement and joy.

I'm going now and get drunk ;)
- with love-

Just few words...

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Ill shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
Ill get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.
Ill shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
Ill get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin?

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me - rick nielsen

I've been nice this year :D

You Were Mostly Nice This Year!

Sure, you had your naughty moments... but guess what? Santa was probably sleeping when you were living it up. As far as he's concerned, you've been on your best behavior. So cross your fingers, and you might score good presents.

Were You Naughty or Nice This Year?

Where is my energy?

This week is hell.......what will come in the future?

I have never been so unfocused when it comes to school, I'm not yet into AIESEC mood and I'm always tired.
What do I want?
What do I need?

I hope I will get into the right gear soon - I dont like to be like this, I dont feel like myself.. I miss myself. ( believe it or not ) I miss being organized and willing to do things.
How can I get there?
How will I make sure I have the energy?

Times are really changing - I feel it every day. I'm not saying I'm tired in my current role but I'm very ready to try something different. I hope to leave things in better situation when it's my turn to step aside and make sure the next person takes over.
What do I want to do?
How can I make sure I find the right way?
Who will help me in that quest?

I'm thinking a lot - I think I need people to talk to, so...
If you want to talk about random stuff...You know I'm the right person...

-with random and unfocused love-

Welcome to Lithuania..

I’m back home from Lithuania... back home from EuroCo 2007.

I’m extremely tired, I’m not even in the mood to study for my exam tomorrow.. that’s a bad sign.

EuroCo was an amazing time, intense experience full of learning and amazing people. I never thought I would learn so much about myself, about the people I was working with and build special bonds with my team mates. I really do miss them.

Now when I’m back from EuroCo I’m thinking a lot about my next steps and what are the opportunities out there. I’m more open, I’m looking forward to make the decisions about the future and seeing what links to my future plans so I can make the right decision for me!

I’m thankful for this experience, the conference was amazing, I got group of very close friends, people I will stay in touch for a long long time – and that’s the best think I have gotten out of this.

So thank you Toni, Janie, Peter, Lara, Nastia, Andries, Mochine, Maria, Marjam, Sami, Rob and Ivan.

I’ll never forget this crazy conference, it’s great to be part of the AIESEC Rangers and I know I have close friends who I can share with.

So thanks for everything.

-with love-

You cant get enough of me?

New pictures are online now :D

Check them out - here on the left side - Newest one!!

-with love-

me and my friends (part 4)

Me and Anna Twin :)

Me and Helga :)

Me and Gunga :D


I'm going over my pictures... I see I need more pictures of me with my friends. So if you have any of us together - send them to me :D

-with love-

Why do I do the things I DO?

- Have you ever done things that you are not so proud of?
- How can you justify doing wrong things?

Sometimes I do things that I am not that proud of and I wonder WHY?

I was watching a TV show and these questions, I posted here above, came up to my mind.
Why do people do things that is not worth any pride on your behalf?

Even though I'm asking these questions... I'm not able to find any answers... maybe I dont want to know why I sometimes get careless and leave all good senses behind. That could be one reason hehe.

But over to more interesting subject - I have, so far, spent 9 1/2 weeks abroad over this year, I think that's a lot - that's 5 times abroad ;)
I'm going again in 3 weeks - to Lithuania ;) And then I'm thinking of going to Munich in November to meet my fellow MCP's 0607, that would be so cool - but that also totally depends on my studies..

How was that for interesting information?

-with love-

Is this the truth

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was just a once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

-with love-

Iceland is alive!

I have changed my looks - I had a haircut and I'm so happy with the outcome... :D I have never had such a short hair :P
Love it!

But to the main topic today.

It's interesting to follow the events that are happening all around, causes people are fighting for and how the people of the country come together in joy when that is wanted.

Today is the Gay Pride parade and over 50.000 people are showing their support by walking with them, partying with them and celibrating with them on this important day for gay people.
I'm not at the parade, :S but I have been there last 2 years.

I love the colors, I love the music, I love the atmosphere and it's something I feel good about supporting. :)

To another event that is being held in Iceland these days.....

Love week in Bolungarvík
Bolungarvík is a small, lovely village in the west fjords.
It's a place very dear to my heart - my roots are there, I have family members and it's one of the most beautiful places in Iceland.

They are very small, few in population, so they are trying to increase the population by encouraging people to make babies this weekend.
The hole town is covered in love theme materials, there are huging courses and more interesting events to encourage people to contribute to the growth of the town.

I love this great initiative.

So Iceland is alive this weekend and I'm going to come alive with others tonite.
i'm gonna celebrate, dance, sing and who knows what more I will contribute ;) hehehehe

- with love-

Important weekend :)

Tomorrow starts ( actually for some people today ) the biggest party weekend in Iceland. it's a long weekend, meaning no work on monday and people all over the country take this as indicator to party. There is nothing wrong with that. I used to do the same ;) with interesting outcomes. :)

This weekend I'm going to stay at home, I'm going to enjoy being in the capital and not have to travel at all - the weather forecast is not something that makes travelling and outdoor parties atactive. :)

But why am I mentioning this weekend to you?

I just wanted to give you a little insight into Icelandic culture and day to day activities that I am sometimes very facinated with.
I love my country, I love most of the people ;) and I want to share this with you.

So here you go - for those of you going out partying this weekend, hopefully you will feel the party spirit all the way from Sunny ( going to be stormy ) Iceland :)

-with love-

me and my friends (part 2 )

Svetla and I - MC team mates for 2 years :)

Uni friends - Hildur and me!

Tómas and I - friends and team mates.

Aisling, Me and Aine - Come on Ireland :D

Elie from Belgium and Me, happy in Poland.

Me and Shivo from kenya :)









-with love-

me and my friends (part 1 )

Tum and I very happy in The Netherlands :)

I and Anna Kata

Vera Dogg and I

Only cool girls - Audur and I.



- with love -

Intention = results ?

why do I feel like I have done something wrong when I know that I always make sure my intention is pure and I'm honest to those I'm around?
I'm reading a book about trust - and there I read that even though your intention is good but if your actions arent reflecting the intention it's not going to work.
- is that what's going on?

What have I learned this week:

1. I'm very organized
2. I do what I am planning and I get the results I want
3. I love my friends and family
4. I have big goals for my future and I keep developing my ideas about them
5. I want to impact the society
6. I'm in love and that's a wierd feeling
7. I love to learn new things and be challenged.

What have you learned about yourself this week?

- with love-

IPM 2007 - Egypt

I'm uploading pictures from Egypt now - if you want to take a look at them.

Going over them brings back a lot of memories, and I miss the people there a lot.

It's so strange how much you can miss people you have maybe only once met. But these people leave a big mark in your soul and you can not forget them, the great conversations and the fun you had with them.

It's only 4 weeks until I go to IC in Turkey and I have to admit I can not wait.
I have a lot of friends there that I'm looking so much forward to meet again. Lot of friends that have left their mark in my life and I want to see them again and enjoy their company.

I hope you enjoy these pictures, I sure have and I have to say:
I MISS YOU ALL:)

-with love-

are you also annoyed?

When you feel annoyed - what do you do?

I'm trying to come up with a strategy to make myself not angry when I feel annoyed. It's not working so well. :S
When people upset me with stupid comment - I do get annoyed - but how to handle it?

even though I'm writing this post I feel good today. I'm possitive and looking forward to so many things :)

- I need to learn to be patient and how to not get to irritated with people -
:)
I'm learning and that's great.

I think this is enough of random thought - they might not make any sense to you but they do to me.

- with love-

What does your fortune cookie say?

I got a note in a fortune cookie today saying - " Dont be careless with other people's hearts "

What made me think when I got this is - why do we actually give your heart to someone? most of the times it will end up broken or you are the one that breaks someone elses.

It's an interesting thought for me - what can I do to make sure that I'm not careless with the hearts of others?
What does it mean - to be careless - when it comes to the issue of hearts?

I personally dont think I have ever broken a heart of another person but I have had mine broken by someone so am I careless?
Dont I also have to be careful when it comes to protect my heart?


Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.
- -- Paulo Coelho

It's a question who's right and who's wrong when it comes to the issue of the heart I guess.
I'm gonna go with the flow - but I will from now on try to be careful when it comes to hearts of others and I will for sure be careful with my own heart.
I dont care to be heart broken.

-with love-

So proud of my friends

I'm writing this post in my new job - the atmosphere here is very good so I'm looking forward for the next weeks.

The reason for this post is to congratulate another very important friend of mine, Margret - or maggie like I prefer to call her.

She got accepted into architectural University in Aarhus, Denmark and I'm so PROUD of her!

So Maggie - I told you that dreams do come true if you work towards them.
I wish you all the best and I know you are going to excel in Denmark.

Just remember me when you will become a famous and popular Architect ;)

-with love-

Home sweet home huh?

I'm back to the sunny Iceland - it seems to be that good weather is following me around but hey - I'm not complaining :)

My trip to Milan was amazing.. The weather, the people, the discussions... just everything was there to motivate me for the second term as MCP.

the MCP group for WENA 0708 is a strong group. I feel good about being a part of that group and with the WENA board 0708 - I wish the GN all the best and that countries are going to take the goals and the objectives seriously. I sure am :)

I got many ideas for my term - Now I'm looking forward to share them with my team and get feedbacks from them.
I hope I'll meet them tomorrow.

I want to end this with a small input - I have managed to upload some more pictures since Jan/Feb this year. Yeah I know I'm a bit late with that but hey - at least it's from the same year.!!

-with love